“You’re not eating anything,” said Marilla sharply, eying her
as if it were a serious shortcoming. Anne sighed.
“I can’t. I’m in the depths of despair.
Can you eat when you are in the depths of despair?”
Anne of Green Gables
Ahhh, the depths of despair. I’ve been there. Only a time or two seriously, you know, the kind where it’s actually dark and deep and it seems impossible to crawl out.
Most of my “depths of despair” times are more surface, like Anne’s, where if I hear a bit of good news, or someone is kind to me, I’m able to fairly easily crawl out from under the rock.
But why bring up “the depths of despair” in the very first Sparkle blog? It’s because bringing up a flowery and unrealistic concept of sparkle is not going to do any of us any good. A good part of the definition of inward sparkle is probably joy. But that joy is sometimes buried under lots of real-life struggle and frustration.
My favorite psalm is Psalm 42. In it, the psalmist speaks to his own soul. Why is that important? Because if we need “someone” to tell us good news or be kind to us in order to get out from under despair, and if that someone doesn’t show up, we can speak to ourselves. And that is exactly what happens in this psalm,
Why are you in despair, Oh my soul,
And why are you so disturbed within me?
Hope in God, for I shall again praise Him
For the help of His presence.
Psalm 42:5 NAS
Don’t hesitate to speak to your own soul, to cheer yourself with the truth, to rebuke yourself for believing lies that make you depressed. King David did just that. It’s not weird to talk to our own souls, it’s smart, and it can bring back sparkle to an otherwise dreary outlook. We can actually be our own best friend at times!